Some of you may know that my brother in law died about a month ago. He was working on his Camero, and it fell on him. My sister found him under his car a few hours later.

My sister is not handling this well. She has been suicidal since she found him dead. It's put a huge strain on our whole family.

She feels that she is alone, that nobody in the world could possibly understand how she is feeling.

Since I do not know what she is going through, all I can do is agree with her, and listen. This helps, but it's not enough.

Right now she is unable/unwilling to get therapy, or seek a support group. This is an ongoing issue that out family is dealing with.

While we try to get her help, I do have a request:

If you or someone you know has lost someone very close to you, would you mind writing a little email to me, that I can pass to my sister. How did you or your loved one make it through this? how did you feel? I need my sister to know that she is not alone, and that she can get through this.


If you can help me....please send the email to me: Brimsauce@aol.com, and title it "memorial" and I'll pass it onto my sister (Gina). I am hoping to get enough that I can bundle them together.

I'd especially like to hear from wives who have lost their husbands, and since most of the people who read my posts are gay men....i'm asking you to ask your mom,sister, aunt or grandmother.

I know this is a huge request, but I am sort of at the end of my rope here. I don't know what else to do.

Thanks!
Brian

I met this guy about 11 years ago, his name was Chris. He would be in his late 20's by now. He worked at a blockbuster video store then,and I think he lived near Christiana mall. He was hoping to be a film major in college.

If anyone knows who this is, would you please let me know. I'd love to talk to him.


Thanks

Quick....

WHO is the last Cylon???

I deserve an award!

I bought windows vista,for my PC and bought a laptop preloaded with Vista. In the beginning I hated it. I have so many compatibility isses with Vista, execially the the 64 bit version. Its seems I can't even use flash, let alone my Beckman Coulter CXP software I need for work.

So I put up with it..and dealt with the cards I had. Remember Vista is not that old.

Now it seems that Microsoft is already to ditch Vista, for Windows 7. WHat the hell!!!

I am not very happy now.

Instead of working the bugs out, they just scrapped it..and now i'm sure i'll have to pay 300 bucks plus to get the new operating system.

I am NOT happy

This is a comment "Brian" made on a Soloflex commercial. I wonder how many friends that asshole has now?

I don't know what to think about it. Is this something that's been happening in the past? It's not even December yet.

I was really disappointed when Clinton lost the Democratic nomination. There is no surprise to that. My thought was that she would unite the country, and better our ties with the rest of the world.

So I have to admit that the news that she may be our next head of state really makes me very happy.

I DO see how important it was, that Obama won. I support him, and now feel that he will do an amazing job. I think he knows how to surround himself with good people. I also DO see him as a "unifier". The feeling in this country now is something very tangiable. I can feel it and see it. For this I am also very happy.

But, do I regreat supporting Clinton from the very beginning? The answer is no.

I'm very excited about the future. I have not felt this way in a long time.

I just bought a new playstation 3. I bought it more for the fact that it plays Blu Ray disks, but I now see that it really has a lot to offer.

Does anyone else have PS3...and are their any games out there worth getting?

My last gaming console was Playstation 1...so i'm a little behind here.

I'm going back to work tomorrow, so I'm trying to get use to sitting up as much as I can. I came across this photo of Barney. I love it. This was taken about 10 years ago.

so I broke my back last week, and let me tell you it hurts like hell. Tomorrow I will find out if I need surgery. Hopefully that will not be the case. Anyway I've been to out of it to to post or say anything . Let's just say that I will not be riding my bike anytime soon. I flipped the bike on a hill.

Hopefully I'll be on my feet soon. So say hello to me, I'm bored as hell

Last night my Dad told me that my cousin was going to die. He had a brain tumor that they THOUGHT was in stasis. Turns out that it was not. He is rejecting chemo, and has made his peace with his family.

I idolized Tim, but I guess like most people...never let him know. I'ts not something you admit to someone is it?

So I'm sad about that...sad that I didn't know him as well as I should have. Sad that he is leaving us all behind, and sad that I feel powerless to help him in any way.

This morning I wake up and take my motorcycle class, and fail.

Another failure in my life. Like I needed that. I'm back in high school...the last one picked, the fattest kid. etc. You get the drift.

Then I remember Tim.

Now I feel stupid. Stupid that I lost perspective.

today was one of the rainiest days I've ever see! Thank god I didn't listen to the weatherman. The funny thing is, that they never updated that we'd have torrential downpours ALL day long ! Ugh.

I'm in shock. Shock I tells ya!

Ok, so last night I went out to Harrisburg with Mark and Seth, and had a really nice time. Thanks for joining us guys!

This morning, I was dedicating to catch up on Livejournal. I made it a point to read, and not write. Even though I have not posted lately (yes, I'm fine) I know it's part of the "job".

So like a dutiful employee, I sat down and start reading...

I have a relatively small "buddy list", but had over 200 posts since last Sunday!!! What the hell is going on here. Shesh!

Life seems to be kicking some of you guys in the ass this week (literally for one guy).

Some are those famous mimes or mames or whatever...some are political and some self deficating (my favorite, by the way).

Please don't take offense if I have not responded, or commented. I wasn't there.

Anyway, I love reading livejournal. I get to get inside your fucked up heads...that's like porn for me. I just worry sometimes that some people think that no response equals no care. And that can't be any further from the truth.

is high fructose corn syrup really that bad?

Poll #1246110 Cock Block
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Be honest. How you ever used the term "cock blocked" before? If you have, please explain

Remember the movie Aliens?

That feeling you get when you know you are outnumbered and or NOT alone?

Hold that thought!

Two weeks ago, I was cutting the grass, and using my new weed whacker. I noticed there was some poison ivy in the yard, and I very cautiously avoided the plant. Having had this skin rash a number of times (each getting progressively worse) I knew I needed to stay away.

Sooo.....with the cutting done. I proceeded to cut the tall weeds in my yard.

Fast forward to last Saturday.

I woke up itching all over, and by days end, I had rashes and blisters from head (yes), to toe.

I was mad at myself for STILL getting it. I knew I had not touched it!

So the other day, I was online, and was looking at poison ivy plants....yep, I knew what they looked like, and then........I saw it

The ONLY weed in MY yard right now...and I have TONS of it, that I weed whacked last Saturday.

Poison sumac!

UGH...now come back to that Alien movie feeling I asked you to think about.


That's how I feel right now.


*Sidebar* : I got some poison ivy killer at Walmart. I hope this does the trick!

The man of my dreams has almost faded now. The one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each man dreams of, in the deepest and most secret reaches of his heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him if he were really here? "Forgive me. I have never known this feeling. I have lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, I failed to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way that I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say. I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you". Such would I say to him if he were really here.

Poll #1237198 Sub compact
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 5

I'm thinking about buying a subcompact car. What should I buy?